Monday, March 24, 2014

Here I am...

Here I am, yet again...

Writing about my desire to lose weight. The desire is there but where's my motivation and dedication? Is this a losing battle? I hope not. I am 23 years old, I do not want to live out the rest of my 20s weight 230lbs. How do you get started? Does it start with a nudging and forcing myself to the gym everyday? Does it start with getting rid of all the unhealthy foods in my fridge? Does it start with my environment?

I don't know. Where do people find the motivation to stay away from unhealthy foods?

How do I get rid of my binge eating habits?

Right now I am reading the Beck Diet Solution book regarding sabotaging thoughts concerning healthy eating and staying away from junk food. At the current moment I can't even process these thoughts or what they are.

le sigh.

I'm feeling defeated and depressed. I just want to be happy with myself and I know losing weight will help me get there. I also know that I need to be happy with myself first before I can achieve that goal.

Dear Higher Power (if there is one...) Help me love myself. Help me motivate myself. Help me get to a healthy mindset and place.

Thanks for reading.